So... as you might remember the things with Kim have always been a BIT crappy... but now i just really really really had ENOUGH!!!

i wrote him thursday morning in order to find out if he could come to my Halloween party (which, btw, was WONDERFUL!!!!) and then i didn't hear from him until yesterday afternoon where he wrote me that he was together with julie again and she wouldn't let him go to my party because of me. that's ok... i didn't mind that. at all. haha. it's his crappy life, and not mine. but i would have liked it if he'd written this to me earlier.... like... thursday evening at the latest.

well... party came and went and then today julie called me on his phone and YELLED at me that i should leave kim alone and that he didn't want to have anything to do with me. at all. i told her i wanted him to tell me that and she said that he had tried but that he couldn't do it properly. then she went on with "leave him alone!!!" and stuff like that and then i noticed that her voice got more and more high pitched so i hung up on her before she totally exploded and i'd get angry at her. she refused to listen to anything i said anyway.

Now i'm sitting on my couch being pretty shaken. i am not sure if i'm supposed to be angry or reliefed. i am shocked. i have never been yelled at like that before. never ever! so.... i will let her have her will: i will never ever say another word with Kim again and i will not write him a single SMS again. i have had it. in a way i want to hit someone. but i think that i will just have to get my mind on something else than this.

it feels so heavy on me. *sigh*

listening to Johnny Cash helped a bit. but not enough. sadly.

how would you guys react on this?