this morning i woke up because i got a message on my phone. i must say that i REALLY woke up when i read it. it was from my brother, Simon, who wrote me that i HAVE to take that talk with dad soon (the talk where i'm going to tell him that i can't stand his wife and eventhough i've tried my best for 20 years it's just not working for me) cos he (simon) can't take much more.

what in the world can drive a boy at the age of 15 to be so sad and frustrated? i was so shocked about it. he called me later today and sounded like he was almost crying when he told me that he is going to avoid coming home for some days now because it's become so terrible with our dad's wife. it's so terrible!!!!

so... i called my dad and asked if we could talk soon. i offered to come to his place monday or tuesday next week when i know he'll be alone at home but he said that he had thought about coming over to my place ( i think mainly to get that plant in my garden he wants so bad and i want to get rid of) by the end of this week. but he said we should talk about it later (later as in: later today). so i called him just now and he sounded like he just wanted to give up on me. he told me that he'll go to his dentist tomorrow and only after that he'll know when his next appointments are and then he'll be able to plan when to see me.

i fear that he's backing out...

but... Lars told me that he's free thursday night so i can come to his place and sleep *yay* but he's having a cold or something.... but he's never sick for so long so perhaps he'll be well by thursday :D

and... SIMON HAS A GIRLFRIEND!!!! *yaaaay* that info totally saved my day!!! :D :D :D i know he's 15 and 15 year-olds do have gfs... but... to me Simon is still my little brother so... it's cuuuuuuuute that he's found himself a gf. :D

perhaps i'll update a little more later on tonight. but i'm not sure....