so... my ex-bf Jan called me today asking if he can come and visit me next weekend. and of course he can. i might not love him anymore but he is still a great guy and he is so much fun and he's a total freak. :D well... he mentioned that his brother is VERY much into weird movies and horror movies so i took a look at his site at MySpace and... OOOOOHHHH!!!! i was so happy about his taste in movies :D

so i went on to do a little research on Midnight Movies and Video Nasties and i sooooooo want to make a movie club with some friends where we just watch fucked up movies like these. :D movies i especially want to see are from the Midnight Movies-genre, though: el topo, pink flamingos, eraserhead.

i already saw and LOVED Freaks. how can a movie from 1932 be so FUCKING GREAT!?!?!?!?!?

from the video Nasties i can mention movies like Evil Dead (it's a classic :D), the boogey man and cannibal holocaust (i admit that i will NEVER watch this movie again. it's too icky for me.).

it seems to me that the midnight movies are more... surreal and weird and the video nasties are slasher-splatter-violence-and-death-all-over-the-place movies.

well... i talked to this friend of mine about it and he seems to be ready to start a movie club with me. hehe. i did tell him, though, that movies with too much rape scenes are movies i'd like to NOT see. blood, torture, death and stuff like that is cool. but rape is not.

i'd just LOVE to have a movie club where you only watch weird and violent movies, drink some beer, eat pizza and is really in contact with your testosteron-side. :D

perhaps i can talk to some ppl at Rockstuen about this? I'm sure that there will be at least one or two of the pimple-faced 18-19 year old dudes there who'll also like to take part in this. haha. but i do hope for a more mature crowd to watch these movies with (=people from the age of about 23-35).

but all in all... OH MY GAY GOD! i already love midnight movies and video nasties *YAY!*

i feel so restless because i have replied to all the letters that i got. i am in a HUGE letter writing mood... but i have no letters to write. *sigh* it's annoying. in a way i want to actively go and search for more penpals just because i feel so restless right now... but i know that when uni starts i'll feel that i have enough penpals because it gets harder to keep up due to homework and stuff like that. i'm still open to penpals if they ask me if we can be penpals but i think it's best if i don't write people asking them to be my new penpal because then i think it will look like i have more time for penpalling than i actually feel i have. normally. but right now i have all the time in the world. and my mail box is so empty...

tomorrow I'll go out with my friend, Cecius, that i've known since boardingschool :) haven't seen her for a while and she just got a job that she'll start tomorrow. i think we'll go to Rockstuen (the metal pub) and i gotta remember to bring on an extra t shirt... just in case some of the nut cases that are angry at me are there and decides to pour beer over me. i doubt that anybody would really do that... but when i call these people nut cases it's because they really are. one of them have been admitted to a mental hospital SEVERAL times and two of them SHOULD be on meds but i guess they hide their crappiness too well from the doctors. so... i think that for a while i'll have to expect the worst and hope for the best when i go to Rockstuen.

wrote some text messages with Michael today. i don't know how he does it, but that man just make me so happy. :D of course i got all insecure about scaring him away and stuff (i'm so afraid that i will be too much, too overwhelming, demanding too much of him, asking him to meet me too often and so on...) and we talked a bit about that. i told him that i am afraid if i will scare him away because i think that he's a very important friend to me. he said that i should not worry about that. and that i should remember that it was not me that "scared" me out of his life the last time (referring to Martine). actually, writing with him today made me aware of how insecure i feel lately, socially. i don't know how he does these things, but he makes me see things clear sometimes. like... he just says the right words so i become more aware of what i feel and think.
so... i decided that after i've finished the book about Vikings in England, i'll read the book about how to find balance/peace/security with your personal self and spiritual self via some inka-wisdom. it's one of the books i'll do a review of for the bookclub-magazine :) i hope that this book will help me getting some insight with myself and my... eehhmm.. spiritual skills.

i am slowly feeling like i'm becoming more and more "naked" to myself... i don't learn about myself yet, i just reveal more and more about me which i'm exploring. only when i feel ready i'll stop exploring and start learning about myself. i finally feel that i will become a very strong person some day.

today it suddenly begun to rain and thunder a lot. i really enjoyed it. i watched it till the end. it stopped very suddenly and abrupt. i just love that when that happens: it rains so much that you can hardly see more than a few meters in front of you and then BAM it stops. it's such an incredible sight :) i remember the first time i experienced that. i was in the 2nd grade in elementary school and it was during recess. i was looking at all the children and the raining in the school yard when suddenly BAM it stopped raining. i was really amazed by that and i guess that's why i still remember it.

it feels like there's some more thunder on the way... i feel so icky and hot. so... i can't wait for my shower in the morning :D



i feel soooo sophisticated, thoughtful and wise *lol*

why is my computer never just a great computer? i mean... it's either broke and more or less dead or it's working somewhat fine. it's never just working. grr... 

today i got up at 10, ate breakfast and got this terrible pain because of my menstruation so i went back to bed and read in the wheel of time. my dad's wife came in and shouted "oh my god lene! are you sleeping!?!" i said no. then she said "how can you sleep in all that noise your dad's making!?!?!?" (he was fixing the wondows) and i said "i wouldn't know.. i haven't tried". and she gave me an annoyed sound and walk out of the room again. IT WAS SO GREAT! she seemed angry because she didn't get the last word.... she wasn't the one to laugh at me. i was the one to laugh at her! *evil grin* it was so fantastic! i gotta do that some more! a WHOLE lot more! 

wrote with satan last night. i was SO horny and he just happened to write me so i kind of... "attacked" him via SMS. it was fun. he ended up being really horny too... and then we went to sleep LOL. we talked a bit about maybe having sex when he visits me from tomorrow till saturday. but i never like to PLAN sex.... so i just told him that we'll see what happens. 
i think we both feel like this: we would be fine with having sex... but we'd also be just fine if we never had sex. that's cool, i think. it's like... sex is not necessarily a no-go but it's not a must neither. it's as relaxed as it could ever be, i think :)

btw... i'm done with the wheel of time vol. 8 so tonight i'm starting on vol9. *yay* the prologue is over 80 pages long... *yawn* i hate long chapters... cos they are almost always so interesting that i just HAVE to read the whole chapter until i can put myself to sleep... but i'm about 20-30minutes about reading just 25 pages...  so i will have to devide the chapter over two-three nights or just go to bed really early tonight. LOL 
i read the other day that there are actually 12 volumes in the series. i only thought it was 11. and i only have 10. i think the last two volumes will be in a very different design than the ones i have. they are probably just black with the wheel of time logo in different metallic colors. instead of the designs on the books i do have with lovely pics.... typical fantasy. :D i need to find out if i can get the last two volumes in odense. it HAVE to be possible. or else i'll have to buy them in a shop in copenhagen via the internet... sigh. i'm just googling the book in all the bookstores in odense... and this far nothing is found.

i might not be able to write an update until monday... but i'll try. if i'm lucky my dear buddha will be able to fix my computer on saturday. but i don't really have high hopes on that... :( 

 well... this is all from me for now.. hope you all will have a great weekend :) *big hugs to you all*

two days ago i had the best workout EVER! i burned like.... 550calories on the cardio machines (in plural.... i also did some  work out on a stepping/running/something-machine that i stopped using really early on in "the history of getting Lene fit at the gym". i simply got too stubborn with it and kept working out like nuts even though i was on the brink of fainting.... but now i am doing it a bit again... just 10 minutes at the time. :) ) and i worked out hard for 55minutes. i was so happy afterwards i felt like laughing insanely the rest of the day. also there was a few long haired guys on the street smiling at me... *WOOHOO!* 

today i'm going to the gym again. i am so glad for my motto (that i got from the biggest loser): no bad excuses - bad excuses made you fat! it actually helps. :D

yesterday Satan wrote to me. we ended up text messaging for hours! it was so nice to hear from him again. he's just become single again so of course i'm interesting again. it's like that with almost all my male friends. i'm interesting when they are single. i don't hear from them when they are taken and when they are single again i am oh so interesting again. it's annoying. but i think it's different with Satan. we have long periods of time where we don't really talk much... and then at times we write every single day. he's busy with working/finding a job, band, friends..... etc. so i guess it's ok that i don't hear from him that much. i'd really like to see his band live one day. i also know the drummer of the band. he's really cute. really nice and not too ugly. :D but he's taken. some ppl even think he's married to his gf but i don't really know. his gf seems really nice, too, so it'd just be great if they were married. :) 
satan is kind of cool though he is kind of.... brutal at times. like yesterday, when we talked about him finding a good job, he said that he was thinking about going viking (he looks like one so why shouldn't he be one, right?) and if he did he'd come and fuck me till i bleed. it's.... brutal... but i know it was just for fun. if some stranger had told me this i'd be offended. really offended. Satan do offend me/make me a bit sad at times but i think he knows when he does that. early next month he'll come and drink beer and eat porridge with me :D i think we might also go to this pub where there are mainly old alcoholics coming. those ppl that start drinking by 8 am and go to pub at 9 am and then seem to be stuck there till at least 10 pm. every single day. it'll be.... interesting. 

my mom is sick these days. it's something with her lungs so some days (like today) she can hardly breathe... but she's getting medication to get well again.... it's just kind of worrying that she's has trouble breathing i think. 

i have started reading for my BA. like... really reading for it! it's cool. and really really interesting. i still think it's fantastic that the reason you are to hold a hand over your mouth when yawning didn't start out as a " you have to behave as a good person". it started as a way to protect you from getting possessed by the devil. LOL. they believed that when you yawned or sneezed the devil could take place in your body via your mouth/nose. when you held your hand over your mouth and nose the devil couldn't enter and you wouldn't get possessed. i like that idea so much. it's.... kind of sweet. i just don't know exactly how it turned into something "civilized" ppl do. perhaps ppl would freak out on your behalf if you didn't hold your hand over your mouth when yawning so it became polite to hold it over your mouth just so ppl wouldn't freak out? LOL

today i washed a LOT of clothes! and i also did a little gardening. i don't really know what to do in the garden but i'm getting rid of plants that has died or that is definitaly not wanted. i found that i have a tiny mini-rose in dark red in the middle of the garden. it's really cute and it's the only one there. i wonder where it's from. i mean... it's a weird place to plant a tiny plant. hehe. 

i took a nap after all the clothes was clean again. i had this weird dream that contained a message from my mom (in the dream). the message said that all the time in your every day life that you eat unhealthy foods are times in your life that are not worth living after all. i told my mom this when i talked on the phone with her and she said it was a great saying (hmm... what about no. it's a terrible saying. i usually feel good and comfortable when i eat unhealthy foods. it's afterwards that is hell). 
in the dream i had just moved into a new house (it felt like this house but it didn't look the same). the house was bigger than the one i have now and the previous owner had left some furniture so i could use it. it was huge cabinets (that looked like some cabinets my mom used to have) that was filled with plates, knifes, forkes, spoons, police medals and emblems (the previous owner's late husband had been a police officer) and i even got a mail man coming in to my house with a package with the late husband's police cap. it's kind of weird. hehe. but i like weird dreams. 

i made the tzatziki for tomorrow. i think i might have put a wee bit too much garlic in. but that's ok. i've warned ppl about that already so they can be prepared. LOL. let's just hope noone complains about it. 

for dinner i made turkey meat balls with lots and lots of dill in. and lots and lots of oregano and spices. they were great! just like my mom used to make them. *yay*
it's really nice how i've come to love experimenting in the kitchen. i bake, make new dishes and i look for new recipes. i'm not at all "scared" to try something new. 

i'm also really getting to love hanging out in my garden doing garden-stuff. LOL. it makes me feel that i can easily learn how to take good care of my garden soon. but as it is now i just have to do the little stuff until someone (perhaps my dad... if his wife lets him.. blah) helps me getting started with the real new garden. this far i'm just looking at and taking pictures of the flowers i see in the garden that i might want to keep and i'm getting rid of the stuff that i can see does not belong in my garden what so ever (bad bad weeds... hehe... and the dead stuff). 

i'm really looking forward to my healthy july. and i love the fact that ppl in the weight loss-groups i'm in are up for taking a healthy july with me. i'm so glad i'm not alone about it. it's gonna be great! especially now that i can also make turkey meat balls. they are truly amazing! 

my cooking book is so gross. i keep spilling stuff on it when i'm baking and cooking. like today when i made the meat balls i accidently splashed some egg on the page with the recipe. and the page with the tuna meat balls have had lots of showers of bread crumbs, egg, tuna... you name it. LOL. 
my cooking book is a notebook where i collect all the recipes i want to try out. i'm pretty picky (well it's not THAT bad anymore... but still) so my goal is to make a cooking book only with recipes for foods that i like. hehe. 

for my party tomorrow we'll be martine, signe, the princess and ricky. and me of course. LOL. simon from my old class will only come for dinner as he's going to roskile that same night with his friends. (yes it's the festival i'm talking about). i think it's gonna be very nice. not too party-ish but still not just a movie night at my house. hehe. 

in 20 minutes i'm gonna go and watch tv. there's this channel that will show the three of the nerd-movies. *yay!* i bought a six pack of popcorn for the party tomorrow but i think i'll make one tonight while i watch the movies. i haven't seen them since i was a little girl and i don't really remember anything about them besides the fact that i loooooved them. i hope i won't get disappointed. *crossing my fingers* 


i just hope i won't feel sick after eating the popcorn.. :S 

birger spent some hours in my living room today because i was trying to get some drought in my house and tiny budgies don't do well with that so i had to put birger in a non-drought room (= my bedroom). he seemed just fine with it even though it's his first time in there. hehe. and now he's in the livingroom again and he has gotten this weird idea to fly really close to my face and then in the last moment fly right over my head. hehe. he's a crazy little bird. and i looove him for that <3