well... i just spent an hour in my garden and i am just getting rid of EVERYTHING there except the dirt and my lavendar. everything else has to go and then I'll start from scratch this autumn or next spring. depends on how far i get this summer with clearing the garden totally. hehe.
some of the bushes have grown into being like small trees which are hell to get out of the ground when you don't have some great manly tools. hehe. but i am working my butt off out there (so it's ok that i don't get to the gym so often... i simply work out with gardening. LOL)and i can really see the progress. :) some of the overgrown bushes has grown outside my fence, and the fence being of pretty cheap quality will not last for a long time of branches and bushes growing through it so it's good that i get it cleared out!!!

i need some stuff to get rid of the ants. cos i got a LOT of them. i don't want to totally wipe out the ant population in my garden. i just don't want them invading my terrasse and i don't want them to live too close to my house... i know this sounds like i don't like ants. but i do. it's just that ants can get into my house when the doors are closed and i don't want to have ants in my livingroom or my bedroom for that matter. and the ants on my terrasse... well... i don't want to have ants crawling all over me if i sit out there for a long time. haha.

i think it's pretty exciting to see how well i actually get the garden cleared... some of the plants and flowers and bushes hav overgrown so much that they are almost impossible to move. so i can only hope that i got it all, you know? hehe.

i really feel that eventhough i am killing the plants by taking them out of the dirt and into big black bags i am in good contact with nature when i'm out there in my garden. i like getting my hands dirty and i like to save the beetles and worms from getting into the bags just in the last minute (yeah, i feel that i'm saving lifes. LOL) and i like to see that my garden is getting less and less overwhelming to look at :) if only i could have some help from, let's say.... MY DAD! but oooooh no. his wife doesn't want them to help me (she's always walking in his foot prints when he's out here... strange bitch, if you ask me) but she has no problems laughing at my garden because it's so unorganized. she has no problems with telling me i need to get something done with the garden. but when i tell her that i need help to do that she shuts up and looks at me in that way that tells you "well, you are NOT going to ask me!" and then if i keep talking about me needing hepl with the garden then she tells me that my dad doesn't have time to come and help me all the time. that he has a life on his own. well.. i'm not asking him to come here for days and days... i'm asking for a few hours with my dad. a few hours with hard work and quality time. but it seems that i am doing ok without their help after all. it just takes more time and i have more pain in my muscles afterwards than i would have if i got help from someone.

I really hope that "Ønskehaven" (a garden-tv show where people get the garden they wish for and that my mom contacted after she got home from her visit) will come and get me the best garden i could ever dream of: lots of herbs to use in food and teas and other things that can help you get well if you are ill in any way. lots of pretty flowers that i can use in bouquets and that i can dry and also use in herbal medication. and then i want vegetables and other things i can eat: carrots, strawberries, onions, carrots... stuff like that. if i could get these things in my garden i would be SO happy! and i think i need to find a good spot for Birger to be placed when he's outside in his cage. as it is right now i take his chair out and put it on the terrasse and then i place him on it. but it'd be nice to have a place for him that was out there all the time so i didn't have to move that goddamn chair around so much. perhaps a little air tight box where i could keep my smaller gardening tools and then Birger could be on top of the box?

i think the biggest project in my garden is to get rid of my tree. you know i love trees so much... but the tree in my garden is too big (both height-wise and wide-wise) to my garden, i think. perhaps if i got rid of that tree i could get a nice apple tree instead? they aren't so big and apples are useful :) i think i'd want either golde delicious-apples or royal gale-apples if i ever got an apple tree.

perhaps i should join a gardening community when my garden is cleared so i can get some ideas as to what i should get. and a herbal community as well!

*headbanging to Flat Beat*

yayness on how i feel pretty and i can't help but to look in the mirror and getting all excited about how i just feel great weight/size wise today and i look myself in the eyes and tell me that i can't wait to reach 80 kg (that's just about 7.5kg from now but i could be wrong as the period messes with my weight a bit) and i do a little happy dance. haha. i just feel so good about myself today even though i still have some pain because of the menstruation....

i bought the Thunderbirds dvd-box for my mom today. so now she can die happy, so to speak haha

and i am finally getting my blanket and my green foot washed. the blanket is what i almost always sit under when i'm sitting on my couch and the green foot is this anti-slippery thing i have on the floor in the bathroom hehe. i really really needed to wash both items... and i FINALLY got the stuff in a washing machine hehe.

when it's done i'll hang it up outside to dry in the wind. and when it's out there i can go and do a little gardening as well. you can't really see that just a month ago i got rid of 2 huge black bags of weeds and stuff that just got too overwhelming in the garden. it's all grown over again. how in the world can there be so many seeds in such a small garden. it seems that no matter how much i take up from the ground there's always new plants and flowers waiting to get sun and rain to grow from the spot i just cleared. i am seriously thinking about just clearing the whole garden and then start all over again... oooohhh... i'll have to take my mom into councelling with this, i think. i'm still 100% new to all the gardening stuff so i don't know what's best. and i don't want to ask my dad.

oh... did i tell you guys that on thursday i'm going to my grandmom's birthday? she'll be 92 years old. HAHA!!! i am planning to get as old as her if not older. i mean... why not? she still hangs out with her girl friends and they drive to all places in denmark in the summers and have a good time. 8 years ago my grandmom broke her neck from falling and she didn't mind that much but she got admitted to the hospital and was there for a while. she still has her driver's license. she almost gets offended if you are her guest and you do not drink at least one beer. haha. i think it was last year that my dad's brother and my aunt got my grandmom so drunk in whiskey that they had to let her sleep on their couch haha.
if that's not a cool grandmom i don't know what is. i want to be as active (or more) as she is when i get 92.

today i bought 2kg of cow meat so now i can make lots of my yummy "meat sauce without the sauce"!!! ½ kg of meat, lots of onion, lots of red peppar and tons of curry and i have dinner for 2-3 days. so it was a good buy, i think. usually ½ kg of cow meat costs about 25-30 kroner but i gave 80kroner for 2 kg so that's only 20 kroner per ½ kg. :D i seriously feel like i just bought food for a month... hehe.

and i only have three letters to reply to now. *yay* the last one i have in the pile is to Anna and she's not home for months yet, so i have some awesome ideas about that letter. hehe. i feel so happy about all the letters i'm writing these days. and they all seems to be longer than usual. guess i have a lot to say, huh? :)

i'm really happy that i seem to be more active here at LJ again :)

today i washed a LOT of clothes! and i also did a little gardening. i don't really know what to do in the garden but i'm getting rid of plants that has died or that is definitaly not wanted. i found that i have a tiny mini-rose in dark red in the middle of the garden. it's really cute and it's the only one there. i wonder where it's from. i mean... it's a weird place to plant a tiny plant. hehe. 

i took a nap after all the clothes was clean again. i had this weird dream that contained a message from my mom (in the dream). the message said that all the time in your every day life that you eat unhealthy foods are times in your life that are not worth living after all. i told my mom this when i talked on the phone with her and she said it was a great saying (hmm... what about no. it's a terrible saying. i usually feel good and comfortable when i eat unhealthy foods. it's afterwards that is hell). 
in the dream i had just moved into a new house (it felt like this house but it didn't look the same). the house was bigger than the one i have now and the previous owner had left some furniture so i could use it. it was huge cabinets (that looked like some cabinets my mom used to have) that was filled with plates, knifes, forkes, spoons, police medals and emblems (the previous owner's late husband had been a police officer) and i even got a mail man coming in to my house with a package with the late husband's police cap. it's kind of weird. hehe. but i like weird dreams. 

i made the tzatziki for tomorrow. i think i might have put a wee bit too much garlic in. but that's ok. i've warned ppl about that already so they can be prepared. LOL. let's just hope noone complains about it. 

for dinner i made turkey meat balls with lots and lots of dill in. and lots and lots of oregano and spices. they were great! just like my mom used to make them. *yay*
it's really nice how i've come to love experimenting in the kitchen. i bake, make new dishes and i look for new recipes. i'm not at all "scared" to try something new. 

i'm also really getting to love hanging out in my garden doing garden-stuff. LOL. it makes me feel that i can easily learn how to take good care of my garden soon. but as it is now i just have to do the little stuff until someone (perhaps my dad... if his wife lets him.. blah) helps me getting started with the real new garden. this far i'm just looking at and taking pictures of the flowers i see in the garden that i might want to keep and i'm getting rid of the stuff that i can see does not belong in my garden what so ever (bad bad weeds... hehe... and the dead stuff). 

i'm really looking forward to my healthy july. and i love the fact that ppl in the weight loss-groups i'm in are up for taking a healthy july with me. i'm so glad i'm not alone about it. it's gonna be great! especially now that i can also make turkey meat balls. they are truly amazing! 

my cooking book is so gross. i keep spilling stuff on it when i'm baking and cooking. like today when i made the meat balls i accidently splashed some egg on the page with the recipe. and the page with the tuna meat balls have had lots of showers of bread crumbs, egg, tuna... you name it. LOL. 
my cooking book is a notebook where i collect all the recipes i want to try out. i'm pretty picky (well it's not THAT bad anymore... but still) so my goal is to make a cooking book only with recipes for foods that i like. hehe. 

for my party tomorrow we'll be martine, signe, the princess and ricky. and me of course. LOL. simon from my old class will only come for dinner as he's going to roskile that same night with his friends. (yes it's the festival i'm talking about). i think it's gonna be very nice. not too party-ish but still not just a movie night at my house. hehe. 

in 20 minutes i'm gonna go and watch tv. there's this channel that will show the three of the nerd-movies. *yay!* i bought a six pack of popcorn for the party tomorrow but i think i'll make one tonight while i watch the movies. i haven't seen them since i was a little girl and i don't really remember anything about them besides the fact that i loooooved them. i hope i won't get disappointed. *crossing my fingers* 


i just hope i won't feel sick after eating the popcorn.. :S 

birger spent some hours in my living room today because i was trying to get some drought in my house and tiny budgies don't do well with that so i had to put birger in a non-drought room (= my bedroom). he seemed just fine with it even though it's his first time in there. hehe. and now he's in the livingroom again and he has gotten this weird idea to fly really close to my face and then in the last moment fly right over my head. hehe. he's a crazy little bird. and i looove him for that <3