today i went to bilka (oh how i hate going there...) to buy 10 cans of tuna (in water. not oil). and i ended up with: the tuna, two herbs, lots of spices, some chopped turkey (i'm gonna try and make turkey meat balls some day soon), two new packs of tea and 6 packs of whole grain pasta. when i was standing in the line and waited to pay for this stuff i decided that in July i will only eat healthy stuff. July will be my first month of my 24th year and i think that if i'm to reach my goal of having lost 20kg/44lbs by the time i'm turning 25 it'll be a good thing to eat as healthy as i can. i actually hope to get down to 75kg/165lbs by spring and then by summer weigh 70kg/154lbs. but my goal this far is to just be 75kg/165lbs by summer. 

this week has been hell for me. i've eaten potato chips and pizza and i've had soda. and every time i've felt so damn sick afterwards. it's probably a mental thing. but still. if "bad" food makes me feel like this then i think it's a good motivation to not eat it. at least here at the beginning of my "now i really gotta do something about my weight"-diet. 
for dinner today i ate the last of the pizza i had from last night. and i feel weird about it. i don't really feel sick. i just feel weird. like... on the brink of sick but then again not. 

i've also decided that when at parties and concerts i'll drink and party as i usually do. i don't party that often and i know that when i'm the only one not drinking then i'll be bored and i'll be boring to others. the last 4 months or so i've only had alcohol twice. so you see... it is not like i party every weekend or anything like that. and after my long time of being sick i can't drink so much alcohol. at least not at the moment. after the last time i drank i actually had a hangover! i usually only have hangover-symptoms when i wake up the next day and still am drunk. but last time i woke up and wasn't drunk but i threw up twice and i was soooooo tired and had migraine and the world was just an evil evil place to be. hehe.

so my pact is: eat nothing but good and healthy stuff in July. except if you are going to parties (which i don't think will happen... but let's see). 

oh and i decided what food to make for my birthday! I'll make tuna meat balls, whole grain pasta, salad and tzatziki. it's gonna be healthy and ppl are gonna feel so full. and there'll be no cake. i made one last year and my guests only ate like half of it. and i won't risk that again.